Wow! September has been a wild ride and it’s not over yet! At the beginning of this month, I was really struggling with feeling anxious, overwhelmed, and burnt out. So many things happened all at once in the span of a few days. Things became so stressful, that I wasn’t sure if I was ever gonna be able to breathe. I felt suffocated and like I couldn’t catch a break. In the midst of dealing with RA emergencies, I was also dealing with personal issues.
During this time, I was looking for answers to medical issues and was in the middle of a disagreement with my parents. I was also trying to handle issues with the customer service at my bank and then decided to switch to a different bank, closer to school (that was quite a process). Next thing you know, I had gone nearly 2 weeks without talking to my parents and Silver Bullet (my beloved car) breaks down on the highway. I was in the fast lane when my dashboard lit up with a ton of lights, and she just stopped working. The steering wheel locked, the brakes stopped working, and Silver Bullet started to emit smoke. Thankfully, I was able to remain calm until I was able to safely get off the highway and pull into a neighborhood. From there I called my mom and just broke down. I had finally had enough. That day was one of my hardest days. I finally had a minute to breathe and that’s when everything hit me. I had finally hit my breaking point. After that, I struggled to stop crying and had a few anxiety attacks. I was so distressed, that all I wanted/needed was a hug (I don’t like hugs lol).
Now, I had to figure out how to get a ride back and forth to the appointment with a specialist in Waco, since I no longer had a vehicle. My friends were unable to take me, so my Mom and I had made a plan, where she would stay with me the night before and take me in the morning. Well, the night she was going to stay with me, she and my Dad surprised me with a new car (White Lightning). I was so happy, all I could do was cry. A good friend once told me, “things may be difficult right now, but the reward will be even bigger in the end.” Through everything, God continued to stick by my side and show me how loved and appreciated I am by so many people. My experiences go to show that He is always there and that He is always listening. Honestly, I think I would’ve crumbled so much faster if I didn’t have Him to turn to.
Faithful Healing 